I mean truly being happy through someone else's happiness, let's think about it.

I was thinking .... Being happy through someone else's happiness ..... Interesting.

Now I know it's fine when my hair is messed up.

I found something about myself, sometimes there are subjects in my mind which I want to write about but I don't. Because I think there are ordinary or cheap things to write about, like when I go out with my friends and stuff happens or when somebody do something bad to me and .... . Well I'm working on it and I will find a way to put them here too.

Control your mind, control your fantasy.

Broken Glass

Strange vibe
circles round
Tries to comfort
buzzing sounds

Form an arrow
point at us
We the target
are the one

Place your bet
on the best
The fastest horse
you can find

Drop yourself
in the grass
Breathe the air
at last
Hold on tight
don't fall down

Breathe the air
through the water

Form an arrow
point at us
We the target
are the center

Find the key
lock the door
Close your eyes
for encore

Drop yourself
in the grass
Breathe the air
at last
Hold on tight
don't you fall down
Breathe the air
through the water

Find your peace
turn inside
You the target
you the center

Find the key
lock the door
Close your eyes
for encore

Drop yourself
in the grass
Breathe the air
at last
Hold on tight
don't you fall down
Breathe the air
through the water

                                        The Gathering, Souvenirs (2003)

It's been a long time since the last time I heard something with both my ears.

Social - Political analysis (Wooooooow)

About 47% of Iranians voted last Friday. We're pissed. I personally thought less people would vote. I believe 10 to 15 percent of these people didn't have a choice & had to vote (Because of their jobs or life situations), but at least 30 to 35 percent of Iranians voted because they like the government and think Islamic Republic of Iran will bring them happiness and security.
1.50-60 % of Iranians didn't vote, it means they can not find anybody who can solve their problems, somehow it means they think these problems can not be solved in such organization.
2.These people are the towners, they have the knowledge, money and facilities.
3.Conservatives who won the election may surprise us. They are the people who changed that street's name to start political relations with Egypt. They desperately want to start a dialogue with the U.S.
4.Conservatives know how many of these votes are real, they know the world's opinion about Islamic fundamentalism and governments like Iran's.
5.Reformists are still in the parliament (For a couple of months) & now we know some of them who can present ideas so close to ours. After all I think they can do a better job if they don't have a governmental job.
So it's not the end of the world, it will not be worse than these past few years. Actually I think it will be interesting.
Three things may happen to us:
Plan A: Conservatives will make business contracts with anyone around the world & they'll let foreigners invest their money here. I think they will ease up a little about the social boundaries and they will try to show the world they can rule Iran quiet and secure. They will try to satisfy everyone outside and inside. Although I don't think it will work for them, it won't be bad for us.
Plan B: Hardliners will rule Iran & they will make the decisions, in that case they dig their own graves.
Plan C: Something unexpected happens, like an attack by a foreign country or a riot and ???
We have to face the reality, reform did not work the right way, it's better to move on anyway. When we move we can change, if we stop nothing will happen. Anything which connects us to the world is precious. Iran contains a big potential energy, it will explode soon, it's a natural law.

They Announce that all schools are closed today in Tehran (as far as I know), I tried to find it in one of Iran's news agencies but I couldn't. Anyway I'm sure because my mom work in a school & I think it is maybe somehow related to yesterday's election.

Out There & Back

Something sad has happened, I kinda saw it coming. There are moments in your life you have to walk on a thin line, there are moments you have to decide whether to make people do what you think is right or to let them explore for themselves.
For me life is an exploration, we're here to experiment. There is no right or wrong, there are situations and decisions. Every situation is unique and so every decision.
My girlfriend & I are not together anymore, I know I'm going to miss her a lot, I wish her luck, love and adventure.
There are lots of changes in life, I learnt to welcome these changes, I hope I make some changes too, I think it's one of life's secrets. Another one is To Have & Not To Hold.
I need a short rest now.

I just realized that I want to put this here, somethings are more important:
"I don't understand myself
where have you come from
Why why
I fell in you"

THIS CLUB IS CLOSED (forever)

M
mA
maK
makE
make A
make a C
make a cH
make a chA
make a chaN
make a chanG
make a changE
MAKE A CHANGE

Every face has a story, those who can read through these stories will not get attracted by typical beautiful face concepts.
Now you know.

Added Later: Even typical beautiful faces has stories.

This is a weblog belonging to a NGO named AMAR which has provided a team, a clinic and some tents and other equipments for homeless and injured people of Bam. God bless these people.

I thought I could push the limits,
Damn they're fucking pushing back.

Reach out for patience

There is a pain.
A killing pain.
The only cure is to suffer from it until it vanishes. I'm beginning to understand.

This is my life.
There are many like it but this one is MINE.

It's interesting how the risks we take come back and protect us.
It's beautiful how our tears come back and save us.

Let's enjoy this play.
The hell with easing up a little bit.