What if it is a set up? What if it is all a plan to make us vote on Friday? What if we are going to do something we don't see its behinds?
.... Paranoia .... My world just does not work like that. I'm not going to sit and make up stories when the truth is as clear as that. I'm not going to watch it happens, whatever it is. Yes it smells suspicious but I'm not gonna decide on that.
Our generation's political life mainly started with voting for Khatami, a beautiful election. It was obvious who to vote for. We left it all when it became ugly, we didn't want to vote for those we didn't love, those not as perfect as our ideal president should have been. Without even thinking about the alternative we left it for the others to deal with.
Some didn't want to vote for Moeen because he couldn't talk beautiful, yes he didn't have the charisma. Logic or a calculation can't make us move but charisma can. It takes rebels to live in this world. A rebel is not only who fights with a kalashnikov, a rebel can be a normal person living a normal life in this big town. We can be rebels, it takes courage.
It is a hectic situation, like all moments in life, it can be a chance to win or to go down, it's us who decide. We can improvise excuses, we can say it's a set up, we can be silent and pass by or we can make it a test of democracy, a lesson and a trust in what we see not in conspiracy theories based on nothing.

Time for politics.

Our Old Multiple Personality Disorder Confusion

Step by step I discovered myself, my needs, what I do and what I don't wanna do, in what circumstances I will be forced/pushed to do something. What happened is that I use this information, or it's more honest to say I misuse this information to deal with myself and try to make no problem when I live. There are definitely more than 1 person in me (2 or maybe more) but I can not really recognize the borders.

Reality Sucks

Human being is designed to be miserable. Social life is like that. There is no way to get out of this misery but misusing other's or your own misery. Misery loves company. But life still can be fun, cause we forget, we get busy with other stuff and we have the ability not to think about disappointments and I want to go to Dubai and by an ipod, who gives a fuck about reality.

Acid Lessons

- Nature is full of patterns, you may say nature is patterns. It is funny how we ignore nature, these colors, structures and logic.
- every moment has its own spirit. Trying to find a known feeling in a new moment is loosing "NOW". It again goes back to the concept of PROGRESSION.

Human being is THE lonely creature in this world.

Doing Acid is to know more about yourself not about the acid.

Finally on ACID, in fact some days ago, on May 20.
It was good, well it was not a powerful one but it was enough. I'm sure this is the only thing I would take from now on. No amphetamine anymore, not that I was into anything so deep but I'm getting more concerned about what I do and how I spend my time. Acid was clean, deep, new and fun.

I don't belong to groups, I belong to bilateral relationships. Groups are about interests but you may save relationships from falling to that.
.... or every relationship is about interests, somewhere it is about having somebody to borrow money from or go out with, in some cases it's about having somebody to talk to.

Don't ever doubt it, somethings should not be put into words, words are from our world, thoughts are from another.

We are being the target of a lot of well designed propaganda everyday. That makes it hard to find the way, we need to have our own propaganda. My weblog is the propaganda I think I need.

Wake up dreamer,
It's happening without you.

"What is about it that people think it's so evil .... Because they're afraid that there is more to reality than what they have confronted, because there are doors that they are afraid to go in, and they don't want us to go in .. Because if we go in we might learn something that they don't know .. and that make us a little out of control."

A rebel.

I have realized that my profession is to know and to see and to hear, not to do or to speak. I know it's a lazy approach.

I let my unconscious function, then I look at the result as a fact, I theorize it, then I test it. Some of these theories have been there for a long time and I have no fixed answer yet.

It is fun to live as long as it is possible to look back at your past with the knowledge of today and think ... Well, you first should be able to do that.

Days go by, people come and go and things happen and still this word crashes to my mind sometimes "progression". That's the key.

Poor Grany died this morning.

We were born to lose, even what we win.