It may seem ridiculous but I'd like to put some of Avril Lavigne's lyrics here. Not just because they bring some good memories but because they're exactly from the heart. They're easy, simple and I felt they're real. It's fun listening to a seventeen (now eighteen) year-old punk girl sing stuff like that.

YooHooooooooooooooo

Madonna's Bitches. Look how she stands when she kisses these two kids. I have always been a big fan of Madonna.

It's not that bad, I know it myself. I got a raise at work the exact time I was thinking I deserve it. My summer exam is over & I will pass and lots of other good stuff. Maybe I should go and see some friends.

As I'm not in the mood for writing, they're arresting an Iranian in London, one of those bastards you can tell he is a killer only by seeing his face. As I'm not in the mood many important is happening to Iran and I'm too tired to care. As I see it there is only one future and it will come, all this is a killing delay and we can do nothing about it. At least I can wait for parliament election to not vote, how active is that?

Try To Create A meaning

You know what's hard? Trying to build your own rules and regulations in your life. Acting on the basis you believe is right.
You know what's fun? Believing it's the only way your life is going to have a meaning.
You know what's harder? Becoming 24 and each person you think would find her way in your rules disappointed you.
you know what's more fun? seeing other people doing it after all.
The problem: Doubt
The relief: Writing all this.
Self reminder: Maybe you havn't become those rules and believes.
[Narrator who sounds like god]Good point son.

Writing & Believing

Not everything I write here is my belief. Like this sentence from Matrix I wrote in the previous post. I don't believe it's true, as a matter of fact I believe it's wrong. But it's a beautiful sentence and it worth reading and thinking about. I myself like to read it again and think it through. So there's a rule: when I write something here it doesn't mean I agree with it, it means there's something about me and that sentence, maybe I havn't made up my mind about it yet.

Choice is an illusion created between those with power and those without.

                                                               Matrix Reloaded

Soon the why and the reason are gone and all that matters is the feeling itself.

There's nothing there until you think there is. Is it right? If it is right it means there is no right or wrong. So the first sentence should obey this rule too. I mean if you think "there's nothing there until you think there is" so "there's nothing there until you think there is" but if you don't think "there's nothing there until you think there is" ....

- I'm not much of a summer-guy.
- I'm not much of a winter-guy.
- I'm not much of a guy.

OK, They didn't want us to be happy too much, damn proxies are back. Maybe it was some hardware or sofware problem. Maybe related to this Worm Blaster virus. Anyway, back to our modern islamic borders.

I don't know what's going on but, somehow I can see every site I want. Proxies are gone.

Economical Thoughts

Selling the car for about 5 million tomans. Going to the court (It's a long, old story which I'm not gonna talk about now) and let the motherfuckers do the flagellation so we can get our 2 million they're keeping there. It's 7 million already. If my father can add some money to it we can buy a land somewhere and leave it for a couple of years. If everything goes on normally that piece of land will worth about 30 million then. In the mean time, I can save some money I spend on the car like gas and mechanical stuff. It seems like a good idea & the only way we can make some easy money in this country.

When I'm kind & do some stuff for other people & give away money and free stuff to those who need it, it feels like the world is in my hands; When I'm angry and try to take everything I see and don't help anyboby & .... , it feels like the world's against me.

I'm Back
Killed the virus, I mean I reinstalled windows and all the programs. It took me forever and I'm really tired now. My eyes are tired, never thought someday I want to sleep because my eyes should rest.

I'm suffering from a damn virus, having an eye surgery and working hard so maybe for a couple of days I can't write here.

You didn't come here to make the choice, you've already made it. You're here to try to understand why you made it.

- I missed you.
- I can tell.

Why can't we have a fucking normal government? After all this time they've been keeping Al-Qaeda members, Ali Yunesi - Iran's intelligence minister said some of them will have their trials in Iran. I hope they know what they're doing.

Power

Power is when I live the life I want and provide the same opportunity for people around me, not when I act like an angry man and don't let anybody including myself feel comfortable.