Fear of deciding. Running away from it all my life, I let my unconscious and nature decide for me. But I think I'm reaching the end of the line, Here comes decisiouns I do not dare to put aside & I should do my best in them.

Negative Realistic End of The Line

There is no right, There is no wrong, There are interests, There are habits, There are lots of misunderstandings and fear of the unknown.

Paul Oakenfold is definitely the best progressive trance and house DJ in the world. He's been officially DJing over a decade. There's a spirit in his works, songs he choose, the way he mix them, the place he choose for each song shows a talent. He composed an album too, he also write some songs for Swordfish soundtrack (There's a big difference between a composer and a DJ, a composer writes the song and may play some instruments but a DJ put other people songs' into a mix CD, choosing the right songs and the way these tracks go through each other is what a DJ should be good at). He knows what people like, he defines how people should dance.

More to come, yet to become.

I found a cool site. It's Persian site about photography, one of my major hobbies. It's here. Thanks to Aab.

I'm in love with a lot of people, a lot of stuff, a lot of places, a lot of memories, a lot of ...

Anything you say will be saved and used against you in the perfect time.

Suddenly the world stops, Sounds echo through my ears and fade away, I'm fixed in my place and I don't move, I stare at something but I do not see what's in front of me, I don't have any idea what's going on around me because I'm not here.
It's Gone now. It was just a flashback, one of the greatest feelings in the world.

We're not here because we're free, We're here because we're not free.
                                                               Matrix Reloded

Addiction

There are two kinds of addiction, mental & physical. Some stuff cause both kinds of addiction, like morphine which is in opium & heroin and amphetamines like ecstasy & Ice (metaphetamine). Some stuff cause only mental addiction like nicotine, marijuana, hashish, LSD, love, sex, money, chocolate, work & etc.

Hypocrisy

I do not tolerate anything that shows my real weaknesses. I do not like other people see my real confusions. Anything I introduce as my problems are the ones I solved before, the ones I have control on. That's why I deleted those posts.

Some of you may have noticed that I deleted two posts. I even wrote a third part for the topic but it was nothing but confusion. I may bring it up later when I make up my mind about it.

Back To Business

I was on a trip up north of Iran and it took me couple of days to put my shit together after I returned to Tehran and I'm back. I can't believe I have e-mails telling me to keep writing, it felt really good & I'm telling you, keep coming here cause I won't give up writing.

What if a cow could understand? when you look at bunch of cows to choose one to kill. when you touch different part of its body to see if it's a good one. When you choose it among all the others. When you change your mind, do they know? When you put it in a van to bring it to the place. When you take the knife and walk towards it. When you take the neck in your hand & others are watching.
Relax! Cows don't think.
But it still is a slaughter & I still don't know what to think about it. Damn it's hard becoming a civilized human being.

When I smile, not because I'm pleased, because I think it means nothing, I think there's nothing to care about and nothing to lose, it tastes bitter. I enjoy it. I can relax, feel free, no pressure at all. Then I start over, without judging, without anger, it's my way.

Anything that reach its purpose has died a long time ago. Targets change along the way, you suffer a lot thinking why you can't reach them, you suffer more believing you have reached one. when you accept this never-ending suffering it turns to joy. Enjoy your suffering.

I promise you all, by this time next year there will be no "Islamic Republic" of Iran.

When love hurts, it won't work.

The hell with the answers, We need good questions.