Sunday, August 31, 2003

It may seem ridiculous but I'd like to put some of Avril Lavigne's lyrics here. Not just because they bring some good memories but because they're exactly from the heart. They're easy, simple and I felt they're real. It's fun listening to a seventeen (now eighteen) year-old punk girl sing stuff like that.

Saturday, August 30, 2003


Madonna's Bitches. Look how she stands when she kisses these two kids. I have always been a big fan of Madonna.

Wednesday, August 27, 2003

It's not that bad, I know it myself. I got a raise at work the exact time I was thinking I deserve it. My summer exam is over & I will pass and lots of other good stuff. Maybe I should go and see some friends.

As I'm not in the mood for writing, they're arresting an Iranian in London, one of those bastards you can tell he is a killer only by seeing his face. As I'm not in the mood many important is happening to Iran and I'm too tired to care. As I see it there is only one future and it will come, all this is a killing delay and we can do nothing about it. At least I can wait for parliament election to not vote, how active is that?

Saturday, August 23, 2003

Try To Create A meaning

You know what's hard? Trying to build your own rules and regulations in your life. Acting on the basis you believe is right.
You know what's fun? Believing it's the only way your life is going to have a meaning.
You know what's harder? Becoming 24 and each person you think would find her way in your rules disappointed you.
you know what's more fun? seeing other people doing it after all.
The problem: Doubt
The relief: Writing all this.
Self reminder: Maybe you havn't become those rules and believes.
[Narrator who sounds like god]Good point son.

Friday, August 22, 2003

Writing & Believing

Not everything I write here is my belief. Like this sentence from Matrix I wrote in the previous post. I don't believe it's true, as a matter of fact I believe it's wrong. But it's a beautiful sentence and it worth reading and thinking about. I myself like to read it again and think it through. So there's a rule: when I write something here it doesn't mean I agree with it, it means there's something about me and that sentence, maybe I havn't made up my mind about it yet.

Choice is an illusion created between those with power and those without.

                                                               Matrix Reloaded

Wednesday, August 20, 2003

Soon the why and the reason are gone and all that matters is the feeling itself.

There's nothing there until you think there is. Is it right? If it is right it means there is no right or wrong. So the first sentence should obey this rule too. I mean if you think "there's nothing there until you think there is" so "there's nothing there until you think there is" but if you don't think "there's nothing there until you think there is" ....

- I'm not much of a summer-guy.
- I'm not much of a winter-guy.
- I'm not much of a guy.

OK, They didn't want us to be happy too much, damn proxies are back. Maybe it was some hardware or sofware problem. Maybe related to this Worm Blaster virus. Anyway, back to our modern islamic borders.

Monday, August 18, 2003

I don't know what's going on but, somehow I can see every site I want. Proxies are gone.

Economical Thoughts

Selling the car for about 5 million tomans. Going to the court (It's a long, old story which I'm not gonna talk about now) and let the motherfuckers do the flagellation so we can get our 2 million they're keeping there. It's 7 million already. If my father can add some money to it we can buy a land somewhere and leave it for a couple of years. If everything goes on normally that piece of land will worth about 30 million then. In the mean time, I can save some money I spend on the car like gas and mechanical stuff. It seems like a good idea & the only way we can make some easy money in this country.

When I'm kind & do some stuff for other people & give away money and free stuff to those who need it, it feels like the world is in my hands; When I'm angry and try to take everything I see and don't help anyboby & .... , it feels like the world's against me.

I'm Back
Killed the virus, I mean I reinstalled windows and all the programs. It took me forever and I'm really tired now. My eyes are tired, never thought someday I want to sleep because my eyes should rest.

Friday, August 15, 2003

I'm suffering from a damn virus, having an eye surgery and working hard so maybe for a couple of days I can't write here.

You didn't come here to make the choice, you've already made it. You're here to try to understand why you made it.

Sunday, August 10, 2003

- I missed you.
- I can tell.

Why can't we have a fucking normal government? After all this time they've been keeping Al-Qaeda members, Ali Yunesi - Iran's intelligence minister said some of them will have their trials in Iran. I hope they know what they're doing.

Friday, August 08, 2003


Power is when I live the life I want and provide the same opportunity for people around me, not when I act like an angry man and don't let anybody including myself feel comfortable.

Because I didn't want to lose another lovely girl over a stupid habit.

Napster's adventures.

Thursday, August 07, 2003

The good thing about colorful clothes girls wear these days is, there are way more attractive girls with less slutty appearances out there.

Wednesday, August 06, 2003

My life goes in a circle, every round it passes meanings get more clear.

Tuesday, August 05, 2003

I forgot something, the scenes of people dancing in Zyone (spelling is write?) Blew my mind away. When that tribal music turned into a trance had great meaning, I thought it meant they're the same only in different centuries. I remembered Nietzsche saying "I believe in one god who dances". For those of you who find my excitement for dancing strange I should say in Iran we can't dance. I mean there are no clubs in which you can dance to your favorite music. We go to parties sometime although it's dangerous because it's illegal & places are small with weak sound systems. I would appreciate a week on Ibiza.

I saw Matrix_Reloaded finally. It was good enough. Philosophy was good, special effects were fucking great & there were many good lines in dialogues. Some of them stock to my mind and maybe I write them here sometime. That moment which love vetoed philosophy & technology was good although I'm sure many of you didn't like it. Anyway, release the next part sooner for god's sake.

Saturday, August 02, 2003

I can no longer see Hossein Derakhshan's weblogs. It's too bad, we owe him a big deal.

What Goes On Around Iran

BBC has this full coverage on Iran-US relation by Roger Hardy. It's a four part article which goes through the topic deeply and step by step and clear the situation all the way. The first part looks at the debate in Washington over how to deal with the Islamic regime. The second part is about US perceptions of how durable the Iranian regime may prove to be, and what might take its place. In the third part Hardy focuses on what Americans think about the issue of Iran and terrorism. Finally, the fourth part is where we reach the conclusion.
It says: "So, what policy options might the US choose to pursue? The choices range from engagement with Iran to the aggressive pursuit of "regime change". "I think that, while we have to keep uppermost the nuclear-weapon component of our policy, at the same time we ought to try to engage Iran on some of these difficult issues," says Mr Hamilton - the former Democratic Party Congressman. Joshua Muravchik, a prominent neo-con of the right-wing think-tank, the American Enterprise Institute, thinks that the goal of regime change in Iran is at least clearly implicit in what the Bush administration is trying to do. A few of the neo-cons favour military action to remove what they see as the threat posed by Iran, for example, through strikes against its nuclear facilities. Some people believe that the neo-conservatives are not that strong anymore but if the neo-cons have been temporarily weakened, they are certainly not out of the game. They are biding their time, waiting for George W Bush to win a second term in next year's presidential elections. For now, US policy is in limbo, but sooner or later the policy-makers will need to decide whether they want to negotiate with the Iranian mullahs in order to change their behaviour, or isolate and bully them in the hope they fall from power."

Confession To Make

I'm worried & anxious. What if someday I pick up the phone and on the other side there's this guy who invites me to a meeting in national security places. I know it seems weird, I haven't done anything but you know I'm one of the 100 (did it reach that number or we're over it) English weblogs written by Iranians and I'm in Iran. Who knows what they think, maybe someday they find us a threat to their power too. OK, it doesn't mean anything, it was just a feeling I shared.

Friday, August 01, 2003

I wanna take an acid, go to an open air club with my friends, dance to some nasty progressive shit for 24 hours and live with the memory till next year that time.

I know a guy who asked a girl to marry him and he like to hear a NO answer.