Saturday, December 25, 2004

Just to remind us that being optimistic is ok and needed but reality is something else.

Room Service

I went back to my hotel room, everything was clean and organized. My clothes, bed, desk and toothbrush. I know it was room service but it really looked like it has been done by somebody who loves me. It was a strange feeling.
Thinking about the priorities.

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

He was making love when she was fucking him.

Monday, December 13, 2004


Relativity is a truth. It may be the only truth. Lately in my observations of the world I get to very surprising results. People I really respect and believe in, do things I don't really expect. I find the answer in relativity. I can not explain more now but one logical conclusion of what I have in mind is: Take it easy, it ain't real
Philosophy is bullshit, it's brain's addiction to run away. Run away from its own bugs by making stuff up. It's true that it may lead to a cure, maybe if you don't take it that serious. Of course I'm not sure about any of this.

Saturday, December 11, 2004

The Message is: Break Through

Thursday, December 09, 2004

She said: True love is when you can't live without who you love.

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

In the game ... For the game.

The Truth, The Whole Truth & Nothing But The Truth

I saw a couple sitting on a bench arguing on something.
I thought 'people having problem'
I could have thought 'people trying to solve their problem'
and both of them are true.
Peter said: It's 6-7 years that I have understood I was a bachelor in nature.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Looking for a car with the trace of an accident on right side of its back.
I must have misunderstood myself.
When you think you have misunderstood yourself you definitely did, because whether you'r right or you are doing it now by judging yourself this way.

Thursday, November 25, 2004

(for the record)
I bought a Canon Powershot Pro 1, and hopefully you will see the consequences in the near future.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

Burn your insides.
It's the same distance, you are only looking at it in a perspective.
It's true that I'm looking at a lot of things from a new view.
It's true that my problems are just the same as before.

Thursday, November 18, 2004

I was lost
and I'm still lost,
but I feel so much better.

(Comes from a song I don't want to mention here)


Imagine 2 people love each other very much and they separate for some reason. If one of them create something or do something when thinking about the other, it will be their child and the process is making love.

Friday, November 12, 2004

Don't get used to it, get used to finding solutions for it.

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

And I didn't Even Think of It

It happens when you act like you're invincible but you're not, like you don't need help but you do, like nothing can bring you down but... It's exactly then when nobody helps you, just because you acted like you didn't need.
One thing I know, that life should continue.

Sunday, November 07, 2004

Have you seen that genie who grant wishes? I have only one.

Friday, November 05, 2004

Too weak to take stupid decisions ... Kinda decisions which make people lovable, popular, attractive ... But this world should have another layers ... Please
A lie is a lie ... Maybe forgiven, but not forgotten.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

Tip of The Day

If you are going to put a poem or lyrics of a song in your blog, it's better to type it and not to copy-paste.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Shifting ... switching ... switching back ... back ... back ... back to basics.

Sunday, October 31, 2004

The world is mine ... but I don't want it ... not like this.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

Being My Own Psychiatrist

Confusion is normally started by appearance of something we don't know or we don't like. I think the important point is that it is continued by thinking about something we don't have enough information about. Mind develop different senarios and follow them up to some level and leave them, this is how confusion really becomes a problem. So have something else to think about.

Blank Epitaph

It's true that confusion is THE motivation for writing, and I think you've got another period of it coming. Let's hope to face it right and throw it away once for all. Sure another kind of motivations will rise and take us with themselves.

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Sometimes you want an answer, really soon, you just want it. So you take the first thing that comes to your mind as the one. It may be wrong or as impossible as a dream. But you act on it so confident that it becomes true, it becomes your answer. Not that bad, huh?
We are all becoming what we really want ourselves to be.

On the edge

You can not do anything unless you pay attention to the culture and get along with it, at least with some parts ----- A culture will not improve unless brave people do what they think is right and make it a model ---- Path of changing a culture goes right through it ---- Your mother's behavior is a representative of the culture and follows the same rule.

Friday, August 20, 2004


This is one of those times that I laugh to all my optimistic ideas, that I cry listening to a blackmetal song. Because I feel tired of fighting to get what I want. It makes no sense acting like this world is a easy place to live in, it's really complicated, the world won't give you all you want no matter what you do.

And when I think this is all because I am sick now & my body is weak .... . Nothing is real in this world ... Nothing man.

Monday, August 16, 2004

There are 2 songs I recommend for making love:
Royksopp - In Space
Royksopp - She's So 

Saturday, August 14, 2004

Peter Said: World does not exist, the world is what we think it is. Everything we see and hear is our brains illusion, The rest is real.
He also said: Anything that improves life is good.
The fact that I don't want anything more than what I deserve, give me the strength to get all I deserve.

Sunday, August 08, 2004

I want to dance to that deep beat, I wanna do it with small moves. I want to see myself when the beat changes. Because it's all about getting you into a beat, into a rhythm and then change it.

Simple but ignored

If I want someone to believe something, I should first believe it myself.

Monday, August 02, 2004

It's all about getting you into a rhythm and then change it.

Saturday, July 31, 2004

Deeper & deeper.
Believe it or not it is happening every second, yes I mean the impossible.

Saturday, July 10, 2004

Listening to Drum&Bass is like listening to a speech on philosophy for me,
I really take notes.

Thursday, July 08, 2004


Tuesday, July 06, 2004

These words sound kinda funny to me lately:
Ever, Forever, Never, Everafter ...
Note: That doesn't mean I'm not gonna use them again.

Monday, July 05, 2004

I want them all, maybe that's why I can't get one.
It happens when the speed of your life reaches the speed of your mind.

Friday, July 02, 2004

I can't understand what is good about Orkut.

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Thursday, June 24, 2004

There was a deep silence, everybody was waiting for something to happen....

Sunday, June 20, 2004

Long lost to where no pathway goes.

Thursday, June 17, 2004

"You" does not concern you, "you" is flying over my head. Actually there must be at least one for each person.
Note: More than one is a little bit disturbing.
Acting like everything is alright,
Acting like there's not a damn right thing in the world,
Acting like you can do everything,
Acting like you can't do anything,
Acting like nobody loves you,
Acting like everybody loves you,
Acting like you don't care,
Acting ...
Reacting ....

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Don't look back to your burning house,
You don't need it anymore
Cause we're going home

Monday, June 14, 2004

Emotions attacked by sounds .... Attacked ... It's gone when it's finished .... You're alone ... You have to do it on your own ... But the taste is somewhere near .. It comes and goes ... Only if you can make it yours ... Only if ...

Sunday, June 13, 2004

Saturday, June 05, 2004

Once upon a time, there were a boy and a lovely girl. They loved each other very much, but love was not enough.

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

Saturday, May 15, 2004


I believe in what my life offers me. I know my expectations, I am my expectations but I just can't say no to what happens in my life unless I feel it's a trap. Life is a game. The game is sometimes tricky but I just have to trust my brain & feelings. I know it's going to be alright.
These days people (mostly girls & women) wear colorful, tight & beautiful clothes in Tehran & I see a lot of them feel good about themselves this way. Maybe I'm being too sensitive about it but that's just the way I feel.
I changed my job from 5th of may, just for the record.

Thursday, April 22, 2004

You will think it was a dream.

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

A vicious cycle:
I can not rule my life the way I want unless I think I'm going exactly the right way,
The moment I become sure about my way, I start to think that everybody else is doing the wrong thing.
Sometimes I just want to stop and say "I have been here before".

Monday, April 19, 2004

Where We Rule

Nothing is real until you think it is,
There are no rights or wrongs until you decide,
Nothing will happen to you unless somewhere - maybe in the darkest places of your mind - you wanted it,
You will become exactly what you really want to become,
This life is what you make of it,
All these rules will work for you the moment you think they are real.

Thursday, April 01, 2004

Melt To The Ocean

Saturday, March 27, 2004

Kill Bill Vol.1

Brilliant. In details. Entertainment and beyond. Quentin Tarantino has become a classic already.
He shows us details and changes the place of the camera faster than ever.
Music is just genius, it rules and it owns the atmosphere. That theme reminding us of "Once Upon a Time In America" was a nice trick.
You see a woman killing a hundred men all alone but you believe it because it's somehow different.
Actually it's like "I show you unbelievable, ridicules & typical stuff but I know how to make it up to you".
What was with those weird rock Japanese Girls, I couldn't figure out.

Ok, That game of finding a word a day, failed. I will write single words later but anytime it come to mind.

Tuesday, March 23, 2004


Friday, March 19, 2004


Thursday, March 18, 2004


Monday, March 15, 2004

It's going to change, My way of writing in my weblog. From now on I'm going to pick a word for each day. This word represents a meaning for that day or it maybe something that bumps into my head during the day. Of course I will also write usual posts like before.

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

Flip a coin,
Heads I win, Tails you loose.

I mean truly being happy through someone else's happiness, let's think about it.

I was thinking .... Being happy through someone else's happiness ..... Interesting.

Saturday, March 06, 2004

Now I know it's fine when my hair is messed up.

Friday, March 05, 2004

I found something about myself, sometimes there are subjects in my mind which I want to write about but I don't. Because I think there are ordinary or cheap things to write about, like when I go out with my friends and stuff happens or when somebody do something bad to me and .... . Well I'm working on it and I will find a way to put them here too.

Friday, February 27, 2004

Control your mind, control your fantasy.

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

Broken Glass

Strange vibe
circles round
Tries to comfort
buzzing sounds

Form an arrow
point at us
We the target
are the one

Place your bet
on the best
The fastest horse
you can find

Drop yourself
in the grass
Breathe the air
at last
Hold on tight
don't fall down

Breathe the air
through the water

Form an arrow
point at us
We the target
are the center

Find the key
lock the door
Close your eyes
for encore

Drop yourself
in the grass
Breathe the air
at last
Hold on tight
don't you fall down
Breathe the air
through the water

Find your peace
turn inside
You the target
you the center

Find the key
lock the door
Close your eyes
for encore

Drop yourself
in the grass
Breathe the air
at last
Hold on tight
don't you fall down
Breathe the air
through the water

                                        The Gathering, Souvenirs (2003)

Monday, February 23, 2004

It's been a long time since the last time I heard something with both my ears.

Social - Political analysis (Wooooooow)

About 47% of Iranians voted last Friday. We're pissed. I personally thought less people would vote. I believe 10 to 15 percent of these people didn't have a choice & had to vote (Because of their jobs or life situations), but at least 30 to 35 percent of Iranians voted because they like the government and think Islamic Republic of Iran will bring them happiness and security.
1.50-60 % of Iranians didn't vote, it means they can not find anybody who can solve their problems, somehow it means they think these problems can not be solved in such organization.
2.These people are the towners, they have the knowledge, money and facilities.
3.Conservatives who won the election may surprise us. They are the people who changed that street's name to start political relations with Egypt. They desperately want to start a dialogue with the U.S.
4.Conservatives know how many of these votes are real, they know the world's opinion about Islamic fundamentalism and governments like Iran's.
5.Reformists are still in the parliament (For a couple of months) & now we know some of them who can present ideas so close to ours. After all I think they can do a better job if they don't have a governmental job.
So it's not the end of the world, it will not be worse than these past few years. Actually I think it will be interesting.
Three things may happen to us:
Plan A: Conservatives will make business contracts with anyone around the world & they'll let foreigners invest their money here. I think they will ease up a little about the social boundaries and they will try to show the world they can rule Iran quiet and secure. They will try to satisfy everyone outside and inside. Although I don't think it will work for them, it won't be bad for us.
Plan B: Hardliners will rule Iran & they will make the decisions, in that case they dig their own graves.
Plan C: Something unexpected happens, like an attack by a foreign country or a riot and ???
We have to face the reality, reform did not work the right way, it's better to move on anyway. When we move we can change, if we stop nothing will happen. Anything which connects us to the world is precious. Iran contains a big potential energy, it will explode soon, it's a natural law.

Saturday, February 21, 2004

They Announce that all schools are closed today in Tehran (as far as I know), I tried to find it in one of Iran's news agencies but I couldn't. Anyway I'm sure because my mom work in a school & I think it is maybe somehow related to yesterday's election.

Friday, February 20, 2004

Out There & Back

Something sad has happened, I kinda saw it coming. There are moments in your life you have to walk on a thin line, there are moments you have to decide whether to make people do what you think is right or to let them explore for themselves.
For me life is an exploration, we're here to experiment. There is no right or wrong, there are situations and decisions. Every situation is unique and so every decision.
My girlfriend & I are not together anymore, I know I'm going to miss her a lot, I wish her luck, love and adventure.
There are lots of changes in life, I learnt to welcome these changes, I hope I make some changes too, I think it's one of life's secrets. Another one is To Have & Not To Hold.
I need a short rest now.

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

I just realized that I want to put this here, somethings are more important:
"I don't understand myself
where have you come from
Why why
I fell in you"

Monday, January 26, 2004


Sunday, January 25, 2004

make A
make a C
make a cH
make a chA
make a chaN
make a chanG
make a changE

Friday, January 16, 2004

Every face has a story, those who can read through these stories will not get attracted by typical beautiful face concepts.
Now you know.

Added Later: Even typical beautiful faces has stories.

Monday, January 12, 2004

This is a weblog belonging to a NGO named AMAR which has provided a team, a clinic and some tents and other equipments for homeless and injured people of Bam. God bless these people.

Saturday, January 10, 2004

I thought I could push the limits,
Damn they're fucking pushing back.

Friday, January 09, 2004

Reach out for patience

There is a pain.
A killing pain.
The only cure is to suffer from it until it vanishes. I'm beginning to understand.

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

This is my life.
There are many like it but this one is MINE.

Friday, January 02, 2004

It's interesting how the risks we take come back and protect us.
It's beautiful how our tears come back and save us.

Let's enjoy this play.
The hell with easing up a little bit.