Pessimistic
Realistic
Optimistic
Just to remind us that being optimistic is ok and needed but reality is something else.

Room Service

I went back to my hotel room, everything was clean and organized. My clothes, bed, desk and toothbrush. I know it was room service but it really looked like it has been done by somebody who loves me. It was a strange feeling.

Thinking about the priorities.

He was making love when she was fucking him.

Relativity

Relativity is a truth. It may be the only truth. Lately in my observations of the world I get to very surprising results. People I really respect and believe in, do things I don't really expect. I find the answer in relativity. I can not explain more now but one logical conclusion of what I have in mind is: Take it easy, it ain't real

Philosophy is bullshit, it's brain's addiction to run away. Run away from its own bugs by making stuff up. It's true that it may lead to a cure, maybe if you don't take it that serious. Of course I'm not sure about any of this.

The Message is: Break Through

She said: True love is when you can't live without who you love.

In the game ... For the game.

The Truth, The Whole Truth & Nothing But The Truth

I saw a couple sitting on a bench arguing on something.
I thought 'people having problem'
I could have thought 'people trying to solve their problem'
and both of them are true.

Peter said: It's 6-7 years that I have understood I was a bachelor in nature.

Looking for a car with the trace of an accident on right side of its back.

I must have misunderstood myself.
When you think you have misunderstood yourself you definitely did, because whether you'r right or you are doing it now by judging yourself this way.

(for the record)
I bought a Canon Powershot Pro 1, and hopefully you will see the consequences in the near future.

Burn your insides.

It's the same distance, you are only looking at it in a perspective.

It's true that I'm looking at a lot of things from a new view.
It's true that my problems are just the same as before.

I was lost
and I'm still lost,
but I feel so much better.

(Comes from a song I don't want to mention here)

Romance

Imagine 2 people love each other very much and they separate for some reason. If one of them create something or do something when thinking about the other, it will be their child and the process is making love.

Don't get used to it, get used to finding solutions for it.

And I didn't Even Think of It

It happens when you act like you're invincible but you're not, like you don't need help but you do, like nothing can bring you down but... It's exactly then when nobody helps you, just because you acted like you didn't need.

One thing I know, that life should continue.

Have you seen that genie who grant wishes? I have only one.

Too weak to take stupid decisions ... Kinda decisions which make people lovable, popular, attractive ... But this world should have another layers ... Please

Icing.

A lie is a lie ... Maybe forgiven, but not forgotten.

Tip of The Day

If you are going to put a poem or lyrics of a song in your blog, it's better to type it and not to copy-paste.

Shifting ... switching ... switching back ... back ... back ... back to basics.

The world is mine ... but I don't want it ... not like this.

Being My Own Psychiatrist

Confusion is normally started by appearance of something we don't know or we don't like. I think the important point is that it is continued by thinking about something we don't have enough information about. Mind develop different senarios and follow them up to some level and leave them, this is how confusion really becomes a problem. So have something else to think about.

Blank Epitaph

It's true that confusion is THE motivation for writing, and I think you've got another period of it coming. Let's hope to face it right and throw it away once for all. Sure another kind of motivations will rise and take us with themselves.

Sometimes you want an answer, really soon, you just want it. So you take the first thing that comes to your mind as the one. It may be wrong or as impossible as a dream. But you act on it so confident that it becomes true, it becomes your answer. Not that bad, huh?

We are all becoming what we really want ourselves to be.

On the edge

You can not do anything unless you pay attention to the culture and get along with it, at least with some parts ----- A culture will not improve unless brave people do what they think is right and make it a model ---- Path of changing a culture goes right through it ---- Your mother's behavior is a representative of the culture and follows the same rule.

esrltuvhesitvges

This is one of those times that I laugh to all my optimistic ideas, that I cry listening to a blackmetal song. Because I feel tired of fighting to get what I want. It makes no sense acting like this world is a easy place to live in, it's really complicated, the world won't give you all you want no matter what you do.

And when I think this is all because I am sick now & my body is weak .... . Nothing is real in this world ... Nothing man.

There are 2 songs I recommend for making love:
Royksopp - In Space
Royksopp - She's So 

Peter Said: World does not exist, the world is what we think it is. Everything we see and hear is our brains illusion, The rest is real.
He also said: Anything that improves life is good.

The fact that I don't want anything more than what I deserve, give me the strength to get all I deserve.

I want to dance to that deep beat, I wanna do it with small moves. I want to see myself when the beat changes. Because it's all about getting you into a beat, into a rhythm and then change it.

Simple but ignored

If I want someone to believe something, I should first believe it myself.

It's all about getting you into a rhythm and then change it.

Deeper & deeper.

Believe it or not it is happening every second, yes I mean the impossible.

Listening to Drum&Bass is like listening to a speech on philosophy for me,
I really take notes.

Stablishing

These words sound kinda funny to me lately:
Ever, Forever, Never, Everafter ...
Note: That doesn't mean I'm not gonna use them again.

I want them all, maybe that's why I can't get one.

It happens when the speed of your life reaches the speed of your mind.

I can't understand what is good about Orkut.

Choosing

There was a deep silence, everybody was waiting for something to happen....

Long lost to where no pathway goes.

"You" does not concern you, "you" is flying over my head. Actually there must be at least one for each person.
Note: More than one is a little bit disturbing.

Acting like everything is alright,
Acting like there's not a damn right thing in the world,
Acting like you can do everything,
Acting like you can't do anything,
Acting like nobody loves you,
Acting like everybody loves you,
Acting like you don't care,
Acting ...
Reacting ....

Exodus
Don't look back to your burning house,
You don't need it anymore
Cause we're going home

                         Samael

Emotions attacked by sounds .... Attacked ... It's gone when it's finished .... You're alone ... You have to do it on your own ... But the taste is somewhere near .. It comes and goes ... Only if you can make it yours ... Only if ...

Cheap

Once upon a time, there were a boy and a lovely girl. They loved each other very much, but love was not enough.

Happy birthday my Extraordinary Girl.

Decisions

I believe in what my life offers me. I know my expectations, I am my expectations but I just can't say no to what happens in my life unless I feel it's a trap. Life is a game. The game is sometimes tricky but I just have to trust my brain & feelings. I know it's going to be alright.

These days people (mostly girls & women) wear colorful, tight & beautiful clothes in Tehran & I see a lot of them feel good about themselves this way. Maybe I'm being too sensitive about it but that's just the way I feel.

I changed my job from 5th of may, just for the record.

You will think it was a dream.

A vicious cycle:
I can not rule my life the way I want unless I think I'm going exactly the right way,
The moment I become sure about my way, I start to think that everybody else is doing the wrong thing.
Sometimes I just want to stop and say "I have been here before".

Where We Rule

Nothing is real until you think it is,
There are no rights or wrongs until you decide,
Nothing will happen to you unless somewhere - maybe in the darkest places of your mind - you wanted it,
You will become exactly what you really want to become,
This life is what you make of it,
All these rules will work for you the moment you think they are real.

Melt To The Ocean

Kill Bill Vol.1

Brilliant. In details. Entertainment and beyond. Quentin Tarantino has become a classic already.
He shows us details and changes the place of the camera faster than ever.
Music is just genius, it rules and it owns the atmosphere. That theme reminding us of "Once Upon a Time In America" was a nice trick.
You see a woman killing a hundred men all alone but you believe it because it's somehow different.
Actually it's like "I show you unbelievable, ridicules & typical stuff but I know how to make it up to you".
What was with those weird rock Japanese Girls, I couldn't figure out.

Ok, That game of finding a word a day, failed. I will write single words later but anytime it come to mind.

Yesterday's:
Spring

Yesterday's:
Pleased

Yesterday's:
Non-Stop

It's going to change, My way of writing in my weblog. From now on I'm going to pick a word for each day. This word represents a meaning for that day or it maybe something that bumps into my head during the day. Of course I will also write usual posts like before.

Flip a coin,
Heads I win, Tails you loose.

I mean truly being happy through someone else's happiness, let's think about it.

I was thinking .... Being happy through someone else's happiness ..... Interesting.

Now I know it's fine when my hair is messed up.

I found something about myself, sometimes there are subjects in my mind which I want to write about but I don't. Because I think there are ordinary or cheap things to write about, like when I go out with my friends and stuff happens or when somebody do something bad to me and .... . Well I'm working on it and I will find a way to put them here too.

Control your mind, control your fantasy.

Broken Glass

Strange vibe
circles round
Tries to comfort
buzzing sounds

Form an arrow
point at us
We the target
are the one

Place your bet
on the best
The fastest horse
you can find

Drop yourself
in the grass
Breathe the air
at last
Hold on tight
don't fall down

Breathe the air
through the water

Form an arrow
point at us
We the target
are the center

Find the key
lock the door
Close your eyes
for encore

Drop yourself
in the grass
Breathe the air
at last
Hold on tight
don't you fall down
Breathe the air
through the water

Find your peace
turn inside
You the target
you the center

Find the key
lock the door
Close your eyes
for encore

Drop yourself
in the grass
Breathe the air
at last
Hold on tight
don't you fall down
Breathe the air
through the water

                                        The Gathering, Souvenirs (2003)

It's been a long time since the last time I heard something with both my ears.

Social - Political analysis (Wooooooow)

About 47% of Iranians voted last Friday. We're pissed. I personally thought less people would vote. I believe 10 to 15 percent of these people didn't have a choice & had to vote (Because of their jobs or life situations), but at least 30 to 35 percent of Iranians voted because they like the government and think Islamic Republic of Iran will bring them happiness and security.
1.50-60 % of Iranians didn't vote, it means they can not find anybody who can solve their problems, somehow it means they think these problems can not be solved in such organization.
2.These people are the towners, they have the knowledge, money and facilities.
3.Conservatives who won the election may surprise us. They are the people who changed that street's name to start political relations with Egypt. They desperately want to start a dialogue with the U.S.
4.Conservatives know how many of these votes are real, they know the world's opinion about Islamic fundamentalism and governments like Iran's.
5.Reformists are still in the parliament (For a couple of months) & now we know some of them who can present ideas so close to ours. After all I think they can do a better job if they don't have a governmental job.
So it's not the end of the world, it will not be worse than these past few years. Actually I think it will be interesting.
Three things may happen to us:
Plan A: Conservatives will make business contracts with anyone around the world & they'll let foreigners invest their money here. I think they will ease up a little about the social boundaries and they will try to show the world they can rule Iran quiet and secure. They will try to satisfy everyone outside and inside. Although I don't think it will work for them, it won't be bad for us.
Plan B: Hardliners will rule Iran & they will make the decisions, in that case they dig their own graves.
Plan C: Something unexpected happens, like an attack by a foreign country or a riot and ???
We have to face the reality, reform did not work the right way, it's better to move on anyway. When we move we can change, if we stop nothing will happen. Anything which connects us to the world is precious. Iran contains a big potential energy, it will explode soon, it's a natural law.

They Announce that all schools are closed today in Tehran (as far as I know), I tried to find it in one of Iran's news agencies but I couldn't. Anyway I'm sure because my mom work in a school & I think it is maybe somehow related to yesterday's election.

Out There & Back

Something sad has happened, I kinda saw it coming. There are moments in your life you have to walk on a thin line, there are moments you have to decide whether to make people do what you think is right or to let them explore for themselves.
For me life is an exploration, we're here to experiment. There is no right or wrong, there are situations and decisions. Every situation is unique and so every decision.
My girlfriend & I are not together anymore, I know I'm going to miss her a lot, I wish her luck, love and adventure.
There are lots of changes in life, I learnt to welcome these changes, I hope I make some changes too, I think it's one of life's secrets. Another one is To Have & Not To Hold.
I need a short rest now.

I just realized that I want to put this here, somethings are more important:
"I don't understand myself
where have you come from
Why why
I fell in you"

THIS CLUB IS CLOSED (forever)

M
mA
maK
makE
make A
make a C
make a cH
make a chA
make a chaN
make a chanG
make a changE
MAKE A CHANGE

Every face has a story, those who can read through these stories will not get attracted by typical beautiful face concepts.
Now you know.

Added Later: Even typical beautiful faces has stories.

This is a weblog belonging to a NGO named AMAR which has provided a team, a clinic and some tents and other equipments for homeless and injured people of Bam. God bless these people.

I thought I could push the limits,
Damn they're fucking pushing back.

Reach out for patience

There is a pain.
A killing pain.
The only cure is to suffer from it until it vanishes. I'm beginning to understand.

This is my life.
There are many like it but this one is MINE.

It's interesting how the risks we take come back and protect us.
It's beautiful how our tears come back and save us.

Let's enjoy this play.
The hell with easing up a little bit.