This is one of those times that I laugh to all my optimistic ideas, that I cry listening to a blackmetal song. Because I feel tired of fighting to get what I want. It makes no sense acting like this world is a easy place to live in, it's really complicated, the world won't give you all you want no matter what you do.
And when I think this is all because I am sick now & my body is weak .... . Nothing is real in this world ... Nothing man.