In the name of jealousy love was born,
This sick love,
We miserable creatures.

Keep your doubts while you listen to them theorizing hope.

I thought of this a couple of days ago:
conscious is you and me, that miserable struggling part of a human being. Unconscious is that confident part which knows everything about us, what happens to conscious has been decided for and planned in unconscious before, the good news is that what we do in conscious now will affect the unconscious (Depending on how we do it). That's why that struggle is precious, it is the meaning of life, that's why those who do it should be proud, I hail those who live.
I will explain more.

When I love someone and she suffers of something I definitely suffer, but it's killing me when I don't know why she suffers. That's interesting. I think I'm functioning right, just like a human being.

... And it is happening.

I hope Rafsanjani has his own fucking ways to gain votes because I feel a kind of inaction in people. We are strange people and these are strange days. I would say having Ahmadinejad as winner announced Saturday noon, is definitely a possibility. Saturday afternoon we're going to face a fact. A fact about Iranians, it's better to know than not to.

The Game

Your Game
- I don't play your game.
- I play your game. I play it better than you, I win over you but if there is a prize, it's yours.

My Game
- I don't think you're understanding my game.
- I don't let you play my game.
- I don't let you play my game but you can watch.
- Let's play my game. From the moment you start you're the winner, I also win, because I play it with you.

Sorry I forgot to ask you, do you believe that life is a game?

What if it is a set up? What if it is all a plan to make us vote on Friday? What if we are going to do something we don't see its behinds?
.... Paranoia .... My world just does not work like that. I'm not going to sit and make up stories when the truth is as clear as that. I'm not going to watch it happens, whatever it is. Yes it smells suspicious but I'm not gonna decide on that.
Our generation's political life mainly started with voting for Khatami, a beautiful election. It was obvious who to vote for. We left it all when it became ugly, we didn't want to vote for those we didn't love, those not as perfect as our ideal president should have been. Without even thinking about the alternative we left it for the others to deal with.
Some didn't want to vote for Moeen because he couldn't talk beautiful, yes he didn't have the charisma. Logic or a calculation can't make us move but charisma can. It takes rebels to live in this world. A rebel is not only who fights with a kalashnikov, a rebel can be a normal person living a normal life in this big town. We can be rebels, it takes courage.
It is a hectic situation, like all moments in life, it can be a chance to win or to go down, it's us who decide. We can improvise excuses, we can say it's a set up, we can be silent and pass by or we can make it a test of democracy, a lesson and a trust in what we see not in conspiracy theories based on nothing.

Time for politics.

Our Old Multiple Personality Disorder Confusion

Step by step I discovered myself, my needs, what I do and what I don't wanna do, in what circumstances I will be forced/pushed to do something. What happened is that I use this information, or it's more honest to say I misuse this information to deal with myself and try to make no problem when I live. There are definitely more than 1 person in me (2 or maybe more) but I can not really recognize the borders.

Reality Sucks

Human being is designed to be miserable. Social life is like that. There is no way to get out of this misery but misusing other's or your own misery. Misery loves company. But life still can be fun, cause we forget, we get busy with other stuff and we have the ability not to think about disappointments and I want to go to Dubai and by an ipod, who gives a fuck about reality.

Acid Lessons

- Nature is full of patterns, you may say nature is patterns. It is funny how we ignore nature, these colors, structures and logic.
- every moment has its own spirit. Trying to find a known feeling in a new moment is loosing "NOW". It again goes back to the concept of PROGRESSION.

Human being is THE lonely creature in this world.

Doing Acid is to know more about yourself not about the acid.

Finally on ACID, in fact some days ago, on May 20.
It was good, well it was not a powerful one but it was enough. I'm sure this is the only thing I would take from now on. No amphetamine anymore, not that I was into anything so deep but I'm getting more concerned about what I do and how I spend my time. Acid was clean, deep, new and fun.

I don't belong to groups, I belong to bilateral relationships. Groups are about interests but you may save relationships from falling to that.
.... or every relationship is about interests, somewhere it is about having somebody to borrow money from or go out with, in some cases it's about having somebody to talk to.

Don't ever doubt it, somethings should not be put into words, words are from our world, thoughts are from another.

We are being the target of a lot of well designed propaganda everyday. That makes it hard to find the way, we need to have our own propaganda. My weblog is the propaganda I think I need.

Wake up dreamer,
It's happening without you.

"What is about it that people think it's so evil .... Because they're afraid that there is more to reality than what they have confronted, because there are doors that they are afraid to go in, and they don't want us to go in .. Because if we go in we might learn something that they don't know .. and that make us a little out of control."