Nothing lasts ...... But nothing is lost.

I'd like to live forever. But only for a little while.

Marking Territories.

Words of hatred won't last for long, maybe a couple of hours.

I saw some creatures tonight,
They were miserable but they could spread the disease.

Words of Hatred

I was used and abused
But they all became slaves to the new dimensions they saw;
... If they only could see
beyond their narrow imaginations.

A philosopher is someone who takes thinking serious.

There are new faces ... ... .. .. . . . In my life.

And only a few will become leaders. I'm not one. Usually one would be able to spread a vibe when he has a well-accepted style or way of thinking and have a will to promote it.. Public look for something like that, they need somebody to assure them, they don't know how to live with doubt.
That's not me, I believe everything is possible. I believe there is a unique way, in a sense, a unique "truth", for everybody. In my world one promote an idea by actions, by becoming an idea. I live in doubt because I see a predictable life too boring to live.
Being a leader is sexy, I admit, but It is a skill out of my capabilities.
I know it's not totally clear ... I'm saying that I'm not comfortable talking about my ideas.

I have sold my soul to a bunch of songs
I have used my body to test some ideas.

For The Record

I've been around, it's been fine and fun. No post with no reason. Well, sometimes I wonder if writing is only a way to free myself of anger, sadness, etc. And I should say it's not. Here I'm writing and I'm not being forced any kind of extreme emotion, just for the record, just for the word.
during this time a lot has happened, this is what I remember:
- I went to Jordan for 3rd time this year.
- I went to Jordan through Bahrain, so I visited the 3rd country of Middle East including United Arab Emirates. I have a lot to say about the visits, cultures and life styles. I really believe I should visit a European country as soon as possible.
- I did an ACID in Masooleh. It's a fantastic place north of Iran.
- I have a new boss, the interesting part is that he is an Afghan guy. So far we have gotten along pretty well.
- I joined a Network Marketing Company called Quest International.
- A very good friend of mine, living in Germany, visited Iran.
- I'm going to a Digital Photography class.
- Together with my cousin, we're going to French sessions.
- I participated in the entrance exam for Social Science in a remote university (is this the right word?)
- I'm in an exciting relationship, a unique experiment.

All is love,
All is lust.

In the name of jealousy love was born,
This sick love,
We miserable creatures.

Keep your doubts while you listen to them theorizing hope.

I thought of this a couple of days ago:
conscious is you and me, that miserable struggling part of a human being. Unconscious is that confident part which knows everything about us, what happens to conscious has been decided for and planned in unconscious before, the good news is that what we do in conscious now will affect the unconscious (Depending on how we do it). That's why that struggle is precious, it is the meaning of life, that's why those who do it should be proud, I hail those who live.
I will explain more.

When I love someone and she suffers of something I definitely suffer, but it's killing me when I don't know why she suffers. That's interesting. I think I'm functioning right, just like a human being.

... And it is happening.

I hope Rafsanjani has his own fucking ways to gain votes because I feel a kind of inaction in people. We are strange people and these are strange days. I would say having Ahmadinejad as winner announced Saturday noon, is definitely a possibility. Saturday afternoon we're going to face a fact. A fact about Iranians, it's better to know than not to.

The Game

Your Game
- I don't play your game.
- I play your game. I play it better than you, I win over you but if there is a prize, it's yours.

My Game
- I don't think you're understanding my game.
- I don't let you play my game.
- I don't let you play my game but you can watch.
- Let's play my game. From the moment you start you're the winner, I also win, because I play it with you.

Sorry I forgot to ask you, do you believe that life is a game?

What if it is a set up? What if it is all a plan to make us vote on Friday? What if we are going to do something we don't see its behinds?
.... Paranoia .... My world just does not work like that. I'm not going to sit and make up stories when the truth is as clear as that. I'm not going to watch it happens, whatever it is. Yes it smells suspicious but I'm not gonna decide on that.
Our generation's political life mainly started with voting for Khatami, a beautiful election. It was obvious who to vote for. We left it all when it became ugly, we didn't want to vote for those we didn't love, those not as perfect as our ideal president should have been. Without even thinking about the alternative we left it for the others to deal with.
Some didn't want to vote for Moeen because he couldn't talk beautiful, yes he didn't have the charisma. Logic or a calculation can't make us move but charisma can. It takes rebels to live in this world. A rebel is not only who fights with a kalashnikov, a rebel can be a normal person living a normal life in this big town. We can be rebels, it takes courage.
It is a hectic situation, like all moments in life, it can be a chance to win or to go down, it's us who decide. We can improvise excuses, we can say it's a set up, we can be silent and pass by or we can make it a test of democracy, a lesson and a trust in what we see not in conspiracy theories based on nothing.